Such a bitch – but something we all experience at one time or another, especially for bloggers under pressure to churn out posts on a regular basis. I’ve never been a consistent blogger, something I have always beaten myself up about – but I’ve kept this website up and running for four years now, which was only supposed to last until I graduated in late 2012.
My writer’s block has been lingering for about a month now, with no new posts or even planned posts on the horizon. Anxiety seems to have kicked in – what if my writing isn’t good enough? What if just nobody cares about what I have to say? I seem to have lost the enthusiasm I once had for my blog, through disheartening website traffic and the feeling I’m shouting into a crowded room where nobody can hear me. It’s been frustrating at times – but it has made me think about why I started this blog in the first place.
At the beginning, I was a student living in Bath and I started alldolledup to share budget beauty buys that were student loan friendly. After I graduated, my posts have developed to be more lifestyle than beauty – but ultimately I wanted my blog to be a space for me to write down my thoughts and musings and to keep me writing regularly long after my creative writing degree had ended.
One thing I am very guilty of is comparing myself to others. It’s so easy to look at other bloggers, see how successful they are and feel inadequate at their ‘perfect’ Instagrammable lives. I often forget that they are only showing a snippet of the whole picture.
Recently I was talking to a friend at work about ideas for a new blog posts and she suggested filming some of my flat for an interiors piece. I shrugged it off, replying that there was no point when the standards of interiors posts are off the charts from the main successful YouTubers and vloggers.
‘Yes, but you aren’t them’, she responded and immediately reminded me that I was slipping into bad habits again. It really helped to be told!
In an effort to take a step back and remind myself about what is really important to me, I’ve bought a Happiness Planner – something I really recommend to get yourself focused again. It is a great tool to make you do more of what makes you happy and take on head-first anything that puts you down or upsets you. I’ve only started filling out mine, but already it’s encouraging me to think in different ways.
So I’ve been thinking about alldolledup and I know that writing does really make me happy. I want to enjoy blogging again so I am going to write about what matters to me, and not what I think I should be writing about. Sometimes it might be beauty or fashion related – but then equally I might want to write about how I am saving for a house, or how I’ve been completely obsessing over Gossip Girl recently. This is my space to write about whatever I want – and if people want to share that with me then that is great!
So things might look a little different around here from now on – but hopefully you will stick with me. Whether I will stay as alldolledup that is yet to be decided – but first I need to start being real again 🙂